It’s been seven long years now. I am finally going to the cold, beautiful, unfathomable high mountains up north. I am finally going home!
The sneak peek of the high mountains last year in Arunachal convinced me that the Himalayas is finally ready to have me back. But there is no mad restlessness or crazy happiness of a decade ago. Just a warm dull physical pain right in the middle of my heart. It might be due to the lack of exercise or some approaching ailment; but I want to believe that it’s the pain one feels when you are about to meet a person you had loved and lost. I am apprehensive and I am scared.
And I am happy too that the mountains have not forgotten me. That it may take years – of suppressing all longings and desires, of choosing something else over them – to come back, but these cold mountains will always be there.
For me.
The sneak peek of the high mountains last year in Arunachal convinced me that the Himalayas is finally ready to have me back. But there is no mad restlessness or crazy happiness of a decade ago. Just a warm dull physical pain right in the middle of my heart. It might be due to the lack of exercise or some approaching ailment; but I want to believe that it’s the pain one feels when you are about to meet a person you had loved and lost. I am apprehensive and I am scared.
And I am happy too that the mountains have not forgotten me. That it may take years – of suppressing all longings and desires, of choosing something else over them – to come back, but these cold mountains will always be there.
For me.
3 comments:
Wish you a wonderful time, Bips. Enjoy the union with the mountains :-)
Go for it, man. I envy you the life to follow; it takes guts to do what you're doing, but I can't imagine anything else being more right. Loved the Buddha story a little while back.
All the best!
@ parmanu!! am back and i had forgotten just how much i had missed the mountains. I am glad i could finally go :-)
@ Ashish...u alive! i had given up on you :-). glad to see you here again after such a long time. and thanks....am not too sure what i am doing is good or not....but it does feel right, you know. so yes, perhaps in the future it will all fall into place :-)
Bips
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